Breathe in, breathe out

Lately I have been doing a free online meditation and the mantra for Day 21 is Eem, Hreem, Shreem. (My being radiates wisdom, truth, and abundance.)

Here’s the thing about meditation. The majority of those of us that do it (I’m guessing) do not sit blissfully for an hour, lost in connection with spirit. We are not transcendent. Every day, my meditation is a constant returning to my breath. It is constant return to focus.

This is an excerpt from today’s. I focus on my breath. Feel it going in and out. Introduce the mantra. Eem, Hreeem, Shreem. I feel my chest expanding. Feel a lightness inside. I think I should adjust the air conditioning. It’s pretty cool in here, and this is costing money. Eem, Hreem…maybe I’ll have Pad Thai instead of the Pho for dinner. Shreem… Eem, Hreem, Shreem. I feel connected to the cosmos. Eem. Deep breath in. Hreem. Deep breath out. Shreem. I feel connected to source. Shrimp. Maybe I’ll have shrimp in my Pad Thai instead of chicken. Back to my breath. Feel my belly rise. Ding. The bell chimes, and it’s over. Believe me when I say, that was a tiny excerpt of the conversation that was going on in my mind during today’s meditation.

Some days are better than others. Some days are worse. And that’s ok. The point is, I try. Every day, I connect with the universe. With my source. Multiple times during the day, I connect with the love that is my essence, and is a part of us all. And every day, as I go back again and again to focusing on my breath, I am training my brain. I am training myself to recognize my thoughts, and not allow the negative ones to get the upper hand. I am rewiring my mind, so that old patterns of fear and worry are replaced with new ones of love and joy.

As humans, we are all prone to getting stuck in our humanness. We forget that we are more. We can all have negative, self-defeating thoughts. We can all have limiting ideas about our life. But we also have the gift of choice. We can choose not to give our negativity a lot of airtime. We have the choice to recognize when we are going down the rabbit hole and to stop. Go back to our breath. Go back to love. Go back to connection. Go back to creation. We are, after all, a people of free will. Isn’t that wonderful?

We are gifted, my friends. Each and every one of us. We have the choice to create instead of destroy. To build up. To celebrate. To revel in our uniqueness and our gifts. Today, I am grateful for my meditation. For the gift of words so that I can write about it. For this laptop I am typing on. Life is good. And I’m going to have the shrimp.

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